So what have I learned from grounding myself from blogging? Not a good idea. It takes alot longer to "catch up on life" when you are so far behind. Hence the 10 posts and slideshows. Hope you have a good half hour because I did "posting overload."
Life Lesson Learned.... Murphy has learned to hold a bottle! What a smart 3 month old! He is getting so big so fast. I love the little munchkin!!!
Life Lesson Learned... You can't be sucking on a Yankee's Binky wearing a Cardinals, Mark McGwire jersey. Are you kidding me? Only Carrie... Can you believe she found this for Gwire. It fits him perfect. He has honestly not taken it off now for 2 days. I am going to have to peel it off him tomorrow or he is going to start being the Stinky Boy!!! Thanks a ton Carrie! He LOVES it. As do I.
Life Lesson Learned.... Trust in God's plan. Have faith in his process. We attended the memorial for baby Mac last week. For those of you who don't know Josh, he is a big guy... what.. I am guessing 6'6" maybe 230 (am I right Cali?). Watching him carry this tiny casket from the hurst to the burial plot was heart wrenching. I will never forget this and to me, I felt like no daddy should ever, EVER have to do this. It was just not fair. I watched throughout the beautiful ceremony, Josh lovingly wipe the tears from Cali's face. He was a rock. Absolutely phenomenal the strength that he had. I have to admit... I have been totally consumed with the passing of baby Mac. My heart has ached every minute of the day for Josh and Cali. I have been very angry and bitter and have a hard time dealing with it. I have asked the "why's" and "if only's" thousands of times a day.
Today, thanks to Josh's big sister, Erin, my feelings have been channeled a different direction. If you have a chance please link to her blog http://mikerinandbryson.blogspot.com/ and read her "Why" post. It has seriously been an enormous help in this process. Baby Mac has been a missionary to many! At the end of the ceremony they had asked that we bring a yellow, red or orange balloon. The hundreds of balloons sent up to heaven was so uplifting. I wanted to share this picture of my friends children. They didn't attend the service but on Baby Mac's blog it had said that if you weren't able to attend you could let off your balloons in memory of baby Mac at a certain time. This was touching. Thanks Carrie for being there to talk to and let out my anger to about this situation.
Josh and Cali - we love you and have been sincerely touched by your faith and strength! Your story has touched many.
Josh and Cali - we love you and have been sincerely touched by your faith and strength! Your story has touched many.
6 comments:
Woot Woot!!! UPDATE! I enjoy coming over and getting caught up! Love the pics...I agree you shouldn't ground yourself anymore...it is just too hard. Your happiness/socializing is worth something right???
Glad your back... Yeah, we're going to be at Melon Days. It's the BIG thing in good 'ole Green River! I hope we get to see ya!
I just get sick everytime I read about Josh and Cali's baby... Everynight I just have to snuggle my little blessing and not take a minute for grantid. My mom lost of baby (before I was born) and she opened up to me about it before. They just took him from her, she didn't get to hold him until the day of the graveside. I am so glad that Josh and Cali got a few hours with him at the hospital. That is one thing that has been the hardest on my mom.
Wow, reading this totally brought me to tears, especially seeing that last picture and the thoughtfulness of those sweet kids. Thank you so much for your comment on my blog and for this beautiful post. Josh and Cali are blessed to know you! You truly are an amazing person! Thank you.
Jess....I love what you wrote. It's amazing how one little boy has touched all of our hearts, in a way we'll never forget. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for sharing the story with me. I feel like I have learned so much from that family....and I don't even know them. Baby Mac must be so very proud of all of them, huh?? I love all the pictures. The one of Baby Mac's casket breaks my heart. After reading what Josh's sister wrote the other day, I feel so much differently though. They are amazing people. I could go on and on.....but you know how I feel. My words are completely inadequate. :o)
As for Gwire's jersey.... He is adorable in it. It fits him perfectly and that makes me happy. :o) I love how he's looking in the mirror at himself. What a cutie. Murphy is growing up so fast, too. You have a great family....and you guys are so lucky to have each other. Thank you, also, for posting the picture of my kids with the balloons. I really want your friends, Josh and Cali, to know how much their sweet baby has touched all of us....even those who don't even know them personally.
Jess I am so sorry to hear about that, bless them. I cant imagine!!! I do feel blessed. This last week with 2 children being hit in little old Huntington it has really made me slow down and take a look around also at how blessed I am. In a way i am counting down until I go to the doctors. I am taking it easy, Beau is the greatest husband alive, he is taking care of me. Thank you for your concern. Your the best. I will keep you updated. Have a better week. Love ya!!!! Mel
I looked at baby Mac's website. I cried the entire time. I was so touched by the experience.
Lots of Love to their family,
Bobbie Jo Udy
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